| Location | Exeter |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2007 |
| Date of Death | 3/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,181 since 02/03/2008 |
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Millie soper grew her wings 1st march 2007 Daughter to Jim and Sally, a sister to Steven, Jade,
Fred, John, Josh, Roxanne, Kaleb and Billy. You were a miracle, a dream come true, A perfect little
girl, you never woke up, You're safe now little Millie, so shine like a star, Play with the
angels but don't go too far. Sleep tight our Little Angel. You'll always be in our
hearts xxx
I was 36 weeks pregnant when i was told my baby had died inside me.
I had a realy bad time right from the start.I had carried 5 other babys and i new something was not
right.But all i ever got was' baby is doing well,baby is fine.I saw the doctors the week before
after having a scan and they told me baby was not growing so i cryed and begged them to take baby
out but i was told no couse baby was healthy.All week i was very low becose i didnt know what was
gonna happen to my baby.At 1.30 am on28th of febuary it felt like baby was kicking its way out.Me
and my husband went to the hospital at 10am the same day and i was told they wanted a trace of babys
heart before the scan.But she couldnt find the heart beat but she said dont worrie ill do the scan
first.I new something was rong as soon as she went over my tummy very fast.I could see no heart
beat.Another doctor came in and told me baby was dead.It felt like someone had riped my heart out.I
was told to go home and to come back the next day to deliver baby.I could not belive i had to go
home and face my other children and tell them our baby was dead.How do you tell a 2 year old and a 3
year old?My husband told the older 3 couse i could not face them.My 3 year old son came to me and
asked me why i was crying and some how i told him our baby had gone to heaven.Ill never forget the
way he looked at me and his bottom lip dropping,then came the tears.I did not sleep that night and
befor i knew it was time to go into hospital.I was put to sleep and when i came round i kept asking
what i had .I had a little girl,just what we had been dreaming for.Millie was born assleep at 9.50am
and weighd 3lb8oz.She was brought into me in this tiny mossis basket and when they laid her in my
arms the first thing i said was she looked just like Billy when he was born.I spent 3 days in
hospital with her and then we laid her to rest on the 9th of march 2007.Millie would be 15monthes
old now and i still wake in the night couse i hear her cry.
Dream a Little Dream
Stars shining bright above you
night breezes seem to whisper
"I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree;
Dream a little dream of me.
Say "nighty night" and kiss me
just hold me tight and tell me
you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on Dear
still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn Dear
Just saying this:
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on Dear
still craving your kiss.
I'm longing to linger till dawn Dear
just saying this:
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Sweet dreams till sun beams find you
sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be;
Dream a little dream of me.
Dream a little dream of me.(Lyrics by Mamas & Papas)
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Signs are fore those who struggle with their belief
But I know you believe in me and it softens your grief
I do not need to send a sign to show that I am close
Trust the feeling in your heart, it's a stronger sign than most.
Where Did It Go?
Where did our life go
What happened to all our plans
Where did that first smile go,
That first 'dada'
That first 'mama'
That first fabulous tooth ?
What happened to that first day of school
Those scraped knees i was gonna kiss better
That first school photo
What happened to that first ' I love you '
That first gappy grin ?
Who stole the insolent teenager who would
Exasperate us, wear us out and make us proud
Where did her wedding day go
And her husband
And their beautiful children ?
In a missed heartbeat
We were robbed of all of this
Of our girl and her beautiful treasured life .
Shopping Trip
As I peruse the aisles of the local store
I see things more differently than I ever have before
'Daddy's Little Angel' the embroidered bibs do read
But Daddy's angel is in Heaven and bibs she does not need.
She does not need a bottle, a new dress or a toy
Of buying those things for her we shall never know the joy
There are tiny jars of baby food that she will never eat
And shiny shoes with buckles that will never touch her feet
As the bikes and trikes taunt me from high up on the rack
Tears will break free from my eyes if I dare look back
I run off to the toilets to blow my nose and cry
I wipe my eyes, swallow hard and let out a sigh
I must go face the paper, pencils and wide rule
That my little angel will never use in school
I hurry past the greeting cards that the people choose with care
And I am reminded of the holidays we shall not share
In the checkout line I bow my head and heavy is my heart
For the family right in front of me has a newborn in their cart
Shopping in the local store used to be mundane
Now every aisle's full of items which remind me of my pain
So, quick as I can, I give the cashier the money from my purse
And hurry away from this previously known now foreign universe
I look like a normal shopper and others can never tell
Why what used to be so normal has become a personal hell.
Love you baby girl
Well Millie ive now had your hand and feet prints tattoo on my back and they look great.Every one loves them and no one can say they have the same couse they are yours and no one else has them apart from me.Sorry ive not wrote for a while but had loads goin on with youre big brother Josh bein a pain at school.They all break up next friday for the summer holidays and im dreddin it.7 weeks home from school im gonna go crazy i think.Well ive got a nice wodden fence to go up around your stone and nanny and grandad so your all as one.I will take some photos when im finished so you can see what else ive been doin up there ok my darling.Got you some more Angels the other day to.They have now really over taken the house.But it does look lovely.Well baby girl mummys gonna say night for now couse im so tired.And i got another long day tomorow with shoppin and housework yet again.Dont worrie my darling your in my thoughts always.Everyone sends lots of love and kissis your way.Night night my Angel.Love and miss you for eternaty
Loads of love,huggs+kissis
Mummy
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I Miss You Millie.
Hello my beautiful baby girl.Well angel mummy has been up all night .Yesturday was your big brother Billy-Joes 5 birthday and we had a party.The kids decided to have a food fight so there was loads of mess to clean up so i stayed up.I also had loads of washing and drying and folding up to do so wount be the last time i stay up all night.Ive been thinkin about you asswell.I have pictures of you beside me and infrount of me on the wall.I wrote this while sat hear on my own.
I sit hear in the still of the night
Youre picture in my sight
I wounder what youre doing now
I start to think of the last time i saw you
I remember holding you close to my chest
And kissing youre tiny lips
I regret so much leaving you there
But i knew i had to do it
Its still not easy walkin away.
People say that time will heal
And the pain will get easer
They cant of lost a child
Couse my pain still hurts the same.
When i see a baby girl
Im quick to turn away
I get a aching feeling inside
I feel my tears trying to get out
But i hide it till im on my own.
I dont want peoples simpathey
And saying things will get better
I want them all to leave me alone
So i can do it alone.
Ill never stop loving you Millie
Or get you out of my head
Couse youre my Angel baby
And ill love you forever more.
Well my darling i hope you like it.My words from my heart.I love you darling and daddy missis you like crazy.Youre brothers and sisters miss you too.
Night night Millie
All my love,Huggs+Kissis
Mummy
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You cannot see or touch me
But I'm standing next to you.
Your tears will only hurt me,
Your sadness makes me blue.
Be brave and show a smiling face
Let not your grief show through.
I love you from a different place,
Yet I'm standing next to you.
My Beautiful little Angel
I start this of by sayng im sorry for not visiting every day.Im going through abit of a hard time at the moment.Im missing yo more then ever and ive even gone back to holding your baby grow at night.Well when i sleep.I was really hopping things might have got abit easer but they havent.My heart is empty without you in my life.I often see you playing in the garen and i so want to grab you and hugg you and never let go but i know i cant couse its only me who can see you.I have a few of my friends who are having babys and im so worried that they will have girls.I know i gotta learn to deal with it but its just hard.I long to hold you close to me and kiss your little lips.I still feel guilty for leaving you in the hospital when i did.I know i had to do it but it dont make it any easer.It still hurts every day.No one knows the pain i feel inside couse i dont show my feelings any more.I deal with it myself now.I sit beside your resting place and talk to you.That allways makes me feel a little bit better.I just hope that soon it wount hurt a much.27 monthes have past and i think of you every single day.I love you so very much Millie and i long for that day when we will meet again.
I love and miss you more then words can say.
Sleep tight my little Angel Ill see you in my dreams.Night Millie i love you.
Loads of love huggs+kissis
Mummy
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Simply Put
Simply put ...I really miss you
I've continued to ask why
Life took this dreadful wrong turn...
Now I often sit and cry
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Simply put ...my heart is broken
Most people have no clue
Unless they live this heartache...
They don't know what I've lived through
*♥* *♥*
Simply put... I long to hug you
Share a gentle warm embrace
Often spend each day just wishing....
This truth could somehow be erased
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Simply put... I can't remember...
Why I never heard your voice
Memories are often painful...
I was not given any choice
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Simply put... I know I'm grieving
Won't get better through the years
I have learned some coping methods...
To accept this new frontier
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Simply put... I'm good at masking
Denying what I feel
For I know deep down inside me...
I will never truly heal.
*♥* *♥*
Simply put...I really miss you
No one knows the pain I bear
Simply put... there is no reason
Losing you was just not fair.
*♥* *♥*
Easter Eggs
If only our children were easter eggs
Hidden safely in the grass,
We could search for them and pick them up
And hold them in our grasp.
We’d have a heavenly easter egg hunt
All with baskets in our hands,
Searching with a broken heart
Only we could understand.
“Oh look, I found your child here!”
“Hey, did anyone find mine?”
They are so beautifully coloured
How they sparkle and they shine.
These aren’t your usual easter eggs
They each have their own special glow,
That comes from way down deep within
Only a grieving parent would know.
We gather up our special eggs
With excitement all around,
For the gift that we’ve been given
For the treasure we have found.
We all stare with wonderment
At our children that have died,
We want to hold them once again
And release them from inside.
But we all begin to realize
We’d have to crack their beautiful shell,
The one that makes them sparkle and glow
The one they have earned so well.
We can’t destroy their beauty
And take them from their magic place,
So we give them an understanding kiss
As the tears run down our face.
One by one we take our baskets
With our beautifully coloured eggs,
And place them gently in the grass
As we walk away with bowed heads.
We look back in amazement
As our eggs begin to sing,
We see them flutter and move about
“Look – our eggs all now have wings!”
Then the Golden Egg begins to speak
“Your children are safe with me,
You’ll be with them again when the time is right
Together for eternity.”
We stand there in a circle of love
As we look up to the sky,
Watching our radiant eggs take flight
Knowing our children didn’t die.
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